This morning, I woke up early (at about 3:30 a.m.) and couldn't go back to sleep. So, I decided to make Grig breakfast and do a few other things before he got up.
Things were going well. The pancakes were cooking and I was loading the dishwasher. Suddenly, as I opened the cupboard to put something away, I caught a flash of movement. To my disgust, I recognized a cockroach.
I quickly emptied that cupboard and crushed the cockroach. It has been months since we've seen any sign of cockroaches, and though the manager had told me that some of the other apartments had been harboring them, I had hoped that we had seen the last of them in our apartment. Hopefully there aren't anymore, but I can't be sure.
In trying to figure out what to blog about today, I kept feeling frustrated about the cockroaches. You work really hard to keep your home clean so that the cockroaches have no place to live, but sometimes after months of not seeing any cockroaches you grow a bit complacent. You think the danger is over and you don't have to take the same precautions anymore.
Cockroaches are just like sin. Often we try really hard to overcome particular sins, and after a few months, we relax because we think that we are immune from temptation anymore. The truth is, you never can relax. We are in a battle against the devil. If we relax our guard for an instant, sin will creep back into our lives like cockroaches. Often you won't even know they are there until it's too late.
If you do find cockroaches in your life, don't be discouraged. Having a cockroach doesn't mean you are a terrible person, or that your home is filthy. We weren't the ones who brought the cockroaches into our home, and often our personal struggles are the results of other's actions. We can't always help our circumstances, but there are things that we can do to counteract them.
There are things you can do to protect your home and family from cockroaches, but if the infestation becomes too serious, it can require outside help (the exterminator). Sometimes when we get caught up in serious sins like addiction, we can become so "infested" that we need to seek outward assistance. No one judges people for calling in an exterminator when things get out of hand. Likewise, we should only support those who are seeking aid for struggles that they are facing. Whether it is sin, mental disorders, or physical ailments, we should do our best to help others and support them when they seek assistance. The very fact that they desire aid should let us know that they are trying their best and they didn't mean to allow their homes to become infested.
So, if your home (whether it be your actual house or your personal life) has an infestation of cockroaches, don't be afraid to seek help or give it where it is needed.
That's the lesson that a cockroach taught me this morning.