Wednesday, August 21, 2013
In the Hands of the Lord
When I was pregnant with Kevin, I was very worried about him. My sister had lost a baby in a tragic, yet sacred way, and my sister-in-law had experienced a miscarriage. So, I was nearly constantly worried about the baby miscarrying. More than anything, I wanted to have children, and the thought that I would not be able to hold my baby in my arms was almost more than I could bear.
So, I asked my husband to give me a blessing. As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we believe that Christ's authority has been restored to the Earth. We believe that there is a proper line of authority which came straight from Christ himself and can only be passed on by one who has the authority from God to do so. Through the grace and kindness of God, that has now been made available to every worthy man in the church. My husband has the priesthood (or this authority). So, when he laid his hands on my head to give me a blessing of comfort, I knew that he wasn't speaking with his own voice, but the voice of the Lord.
The blessing he gave me was not what I wanted, but it was what I needed. The Lord didn't tell me that the baby would be okay. He didn't tell me that the pregnancy would go off without a hitch. Instead, he told me that He loved the baby and that the He was mindful of us. I felt the peace of the spirit fill me, and I was comforted. I realized that even if the baby did die, he would be in the Lord's hands, and everything would be okay. I simply needed to trust in the Lord. Thanks to the covenants that I have made in the temple, even if the baby did die, he would still be mine forever as long as I lived righteously and kept my covenants with God. It was very comforting to turn over my fear to the Lord.
Kevin was born just fine (though the actual birthing process had a few complications which I may talk about later.) He is an adorable boy, and I love him more than I ever thought possible. Sometimes I still worry a bit for him, but then I am reminded of what the Lord told me. Regardless of what happens in this life, if we trust in the Lord it will all work for our good. My children (present and future) are safe in the hands of the Lord.